Final exam on Monday squee! But because History is one of the last exams we have to go straight back into lessons, wtf. But I shall not let that dampen my spirits for I have a new outlook on life and I feel as if this one shall stick. More on that later. Promotion to do. (This is becoming a tiring catchphrase and I realize I didn't fulfill my promise to post more often but I shall hide behind the thin veil of exams and actual revision where you cannot see me and don't realize that I haven't posted an actual post in months.)

New video inspired by Rufus' speech in 2x25 about how it was never 'their time'. 
 

 

 So I just watched the Gossip Girl finale and all I can say is OMGSQUEEE! 
(OBVZ MEGA SPOILERS HERE LIE)

I am so happy about Rufus and Lily and Chuck and Blair but I do think the whole 'Next Queen Bee' was a bit over the top and Jenny's lipstick was ridiculous. Also why did Serena's blue dress appear to be stapled together at the front and pulled too far so too much back was exposed? Getting modest in her old age perhaps? Why oh why is Vanessa still here!? What self respecting school, private or not would let her go around filming everything? Perhaps she and Nate will get lost in some Eastern European wilderness and we'll never see them again thank god. Serena's dad will hopefully be a good story line...but it might interfere with Rufus/Lily but we'll see. Scott is annoying already - why is it that the van der Woodsen/Bass/Humphreys have so many familial issues? Perhaps because they appear to be three families in one. At one point in the episode Eric looked so much like Rufus I did a double take. Rufus' ring was the cutest thing I'd ever seen. 
^That was what I will call a thought shower and that's not all but I remembered I have promotion to do. 

I started this video aages ago and realised it would never work because they were actually going to get together. Then they didn't and I furiously finished it and uploaded it. Then I watched the finale and realised at least one other video was ruined. 

I'm still in the middle of exams but I'll try to post more frequently. 
Cannot wait for that film 'The September Issue'! 
<3
 

Recently I have been less than awesome and have not posted in YEARS.
BUT I have a valid excuse.
I have an extreme case of SADFAIS and no one wants to read depressing, self-absorbed blogs and I'm going to gay Paree on Thursday night and have nothing to wear so have been panicking and trying to ingest as much fashion as I possibly can between now and tomorrow when I go shopping at which I am terrible but it's too late to order stuff off teh net.
Phew. As a consolation prize I can offer only my latest video. 
 

 

TITLE: iTunes Challenge
AUTHOR: Pixellatedsoul
PAIRING: Andy/Miranda, Miranda/1st Husband
DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of these things unfortunately. 
RATING: PG-13 for insinuation. 
A/N: So this is my first ever fic, I thought this challenge would be a really good way to get into it. Unbetaed so there may well be mistakes. 

The Challenge: 
1. Pick a character, pairing or fandom that you like
2. Turn your music player on and turn it to random.
3. Write a drabble/ficlet related to each song that plays. You have only the length of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do five of these and post them. 

 I don't think anyone would want a little of the problems I'm having right now, problems with passports, problems with solicitors, problems with moving house, problems with teeth, problems with work, problems with friends, problems with money and the list goes on! It just seems everything has just piled on top of me at the same time and conspired to make me as stressed as possible. 

So I continue to distract myself with minutiae. =]
I am feeling a change in the waters at the minute and a lack of motivation in anything that the institution I attend would call worthwhile. The creative is pulling me and I do love the creative however I haven't managed to produce much but I have been able to find a plethora of images and bits and bobs that inspire me and have managed to nurture a couple of fledgling obsessions. 

I saw a couple of pictures from the Madonna shoot from W today and fell in love instantaneously. Nothing inspires me more than the louche nonchalance of the upper class and all their secrets and nuances and I think this particular photograph communicates that perfectly. Just recently I have developed a new admiration for Madonna, I've always been rather critical of her but I've come around to the fact that if I looked that good at 50 I would get naked at any opportunity, what also interests me is her ability to reinvent herself and although she may not always be entirely original it's her execution of ideas and their timing that makes it perfect. 

So I haven't update in like an age alas that will not be rectified right now as I have this video to shamelessly plug. =]

In my opinion ep 2x15 of Gossip Girl was the best yet in the second series not only because I am a totally biased Rufus/Lily shipper but Chuck acting out is much better than Chuck acting love sick over Blair. This piece of music has been in my iTunes since forever and I've been waiting to use it for as long and that episode finally made me get off my ass and do it.

WARNING: Severe drama and a totally over the top soundtrack but everyone needs a little drama in their lives non?

 

I come bearing a gift. =]
It's for nicolina04 so merry Christmas, joyeux Noel and I don't know how to say anything about Christmas in any other language.

I did have a good time making this video but I also found it quite challenging as it was my first request and the fact there's someone waiting on the other end for you is a little intimidating but I hope it turned out ok. There's no plot, just follow the lyrics and make up a story in your head if you wish. Or just look at moving pictures and listen to audio at the same time. It's all cool. 

I cut the beginning of the song off the video because I felt the way I'd edited it, it was too static but I didn't want to change it so that is here for those interested. And (drum roll please) finally onto the video itself.

 Yay!
It's finally the holidays! This year I am ridiculously excited about Christmas and I don't know why. Most years I have a really blasé attitude towards the whole thing but this year I'm caught up in the festivities!

I am currently on a vidding roll, there are soo many ideas bouncing around in my head I just haven't got the time to do them all - I so want to do a Christmas vid! 

Nothing really exciting is happening in my life at the minute, however I have come to the conclusion that professional stalker may be the profession for me. Talking of professions I am having serious beef - I've always wanted to be an author then I wanted to be a journalist to fill in the gaps. At the minute I'm toying with the idea of French correspondent but I don't really want to, everything seems so boring at the minute job wise I'd rather just sit and vid. Perhaps I could edit together ads or something. 

I shall roll now, mainly because this blog was really boring but I'm trying to be more active (blogwise) and I need to clean the kitchen. 

Note to self: Change mood theme - half of the pictures are missing. Annoying.

 Thanks to sparklexdreams at createblog.com for the layout!

Lots of good stuff coming soon, DWP vid, a Lufus fanmix and possibly fics to go with it, I'm just finding time to get the work done. Must dash but will leave you with my newest vid - Lily/Rufus - Before the Worst. Careful of the sound at the end - it gets really loud.
 

 

Top London barrister.
Must be at least 6"4 and of medium build.
Must have ridiculously posh accent.
Must love me for who I am.

I love Bridget Jones. 
However I am beginning to turn into her and not in the good - look here's a roguish boss, here's an attractive toff they both love you and will now proceed to fight over you in the street. Instead it's a kind of I'm so alone if I were eaten by Alsatians nobody would notice. Ugh.

A party went down last weekend. Of course I wasn't invited when practically 100% of my friends (but one) were invited. Thanks a lot. Well everyone got off with each other and now they're all sick and wonder why. Now, I'm going to use a Lulu* analogy.

When the ugliest hat in your drawer gets a nice hat boyfriend - allbeit an ugly one, and the hat you have on your very head is still lacking in friendy hatness you know something's wrong. When there's a crazy hat party and you are not invited, you know you are sad and destined to be alone for the rest of your life. 

But I'm going to PARIS!
OMG SQUEE!
Perhaps I will find passionate French man named Pierre or Jean-Paul or something really French that rides a bike to buy bread in the morning and wears a suit that just fits and knows all the secret nooks in Paris and sits with you in front of the Eiffel Tower to watch the sun set and on the top of Notre Dame to watch it rise and will take you to Montmatre and buy you an original that you will treasure after you leave Paris and Pierre/Jean-Paul and will take out when you get old and grey and it will make you smile. 

There was a lot of second person in this blog, perhaps I want people to like me and am trying to be approachable.

Lulu: http://luluandyourmom.blogspot.com/2008/11/so-should-i-wear-this-hat.html

 Ouch.

We're doing blogging in French and it seems I am the only person who writes a blog, I had to sit in front of the whole class and then they asked me questions. Skipping a lot of grammatical mistakes and bad knowledge of vocab the general consensus, and when I say general I mean the opinion of the most annoying girl in the world who believes she knows it all and isn't afraid to say so, was that blogs were bizarre. 'I mean why would you want to talk to some 50 year old you don't even know?' It seems my passionate if error full diatribe did not impress her. Overall I sounded like the ultimate in sad, lonely, internet freaks.
Which I suppose I am.

Have discovered new found love for Karl Lagerfeld. He is my idol and hardcore to boot.

Usually prize giving is the most boring event in the whole school calender however this year the speaker was interesting. And when I say interesting when I read the description of her in the programme I almost  splurged all over the place. She went to my school, moved to Paris and is a freelance journalist and has written for Vogue and W. I never usually go up in prize giving but I had to get my GCSEs and this 'Endeavour prize' which means I 'tried hard' throughout the course. Gee thanks. 
I did have something else to say about that debacle but I cannae remember.

I went to a party last weekend that was one of those couples welcome parties that make me feel ridiculously alone. Then 'My Guy' started playing in Pizza Hut, there was so much cheese I was almost sick.

 So Obama won. 
SQUEE!

Would it be inappropriate if I were to buy a Barack Obama t-shirt even though I'm British? I even cried in his speech and then shouted YES WE CAN at my computer. However I have turned into something of a 'token-mixed-race-girl' in my school. My deputy head stopped me on the way into school and said 'You must be so happy about Obama!' Erm...yeah? 

Sometimes I wonder if I'm destined to be around people my whole life that I spend the majority of time wanting to kill. Maybe I'm a bad team player.  Maybe I have a sell-by-date for friendships. Maybe I should shut up.

Someone read something that I wrote today and told me they really liked it. I love it when that happens. 

Oh.
I don't know why I like to start my blogs with strange, almost onomatopoeic noises but I do. 

So, all my friends have come back from Greece. I don't really know how to feel, in fact I do. I want a different set of friends, I want parties, late nights, early mornings, Starbucks, high heels, short skirts, loud music and then some. I don't want discussions about why Odysseus owns Zeus anymore. I am sick and tired of being quiet and bookish, I want to scream so loud everyone can hear me and I want people to look at me and think - wow I wish I knew her. Or even better, I wish I was her. I am sick to death of 'window shopping' for a good time and I want it to happen. 

Looking at my friend's photos and other people in my year I know which holiday I would have rather been on. I have so much passion and desire but I lack the willpower to get myself up and do it and that frustrates me to no end. I want to be able to listen to Girls Aloud and 50 Cent without feeling victimized because they don't have any depressing lyrics. I want to take stupid pictures and wear sunglasses at night. I want to go on impulse and stop thinking about everything beforehand. I want to write on my stomach in neon and kiss strangers. My current friends ideas about a crazy night out is playing Wii and Singstar, eating chocolate and watching films. 

I am so obsessed with that idea of the glamorous party life, the drugs and the alcohol and the passion and the total ability to be so wrapped up in a moment you think neither of consequences nor repercussions. I want to dance to DANCE music without getting looks like I am scum of the earth. I want to do things not because they have meaning but because I WANT to, does it matter why I feel that sudden pull towards a certain thing? No, I want it and that's enough. 

I want to see lights, lights in the sky, lights in the eyes of others, lights on a red carpet, lights in a glitzy showroom, lights on a dance floor, lights everywhere.
I want to live like there's no tomorrow but the sad truth is I know I will never be able to stop thinking about what other people are thinking of me and it stops me being who I know I could be if I just let myself go. 

 I really should be revising for the assessments after half term but the devil called and I answered. 
Much more Emily love in this video. =]

 Finalement!
It's half term and that means two weeks of me doing very little. Alas we have assessments after half term so I have to revise for those. Blah. Most of my closest friends are on a cruise in Greece and I am stuck here. 

I'm sure I had something pertinent to write here but I seem to have forgotten it.

I met a man in town yesterday and he knew information about me that you could not have possibly guessed, then he told me that I looked determined and would definitely succeed in life but I was just taking a break right now. So that was nice, he didn't even want any money off me! 

I'm trying to think of video ideas now I have some time but as is always the way I am coming up blank, I've just realized also that I'll probably never make another pirates video which is a shame but I have to console myself with Gossip Girl and Devil Wears Prada. 

Alors.

I have had a couple of weeks of school and am seriously thinking of taking up smoking...or boxing. Not a day goes by when not only do I wander why I came here but why I am still here and why my classmates are so annoying! The fact that I haven’t killed anyone yet is a miracle to say the least.

My lessons are pretty much rubbish but for French and IT, my English teacher is too enthusiastic. Too, too much. Every time she turns that crazy million watt smile on me I feel guilty for not being as enthusiastic as she is about sentence structure and participles.
But I do community service at this disabled high school every Wednesday and it is honestly the highlight of my week! I love it, all the kids are really friendly as are the teachers and I just have such a good time! I’m doing DofE, if I were reading this myself I would now emit a shriek of outrage – ‘You said you’d never step foot in the country again!’ Alas that is a problem that will be solved at the time, for now all we’ve done is rock climbing and drink hot chocolate.

Also, I’m beginning to get distracted by certain people.
Some things should be illegal.
;]